Mimoun's7YearsJourneyToLife

  In the last month, my relationship with money and make money begin to be unstable and a lot of fears/worries/memories about the negatives energy about money begin to activate! I begin to have a feeling of lack mainly because I see my saving is decreasing by investing in my new house and also the momentum of my business and income is slowing down! those two events make me feel as I am not able to generate more money and begin to worry about my confidence to make the money I want! and also I begin to see my bank account in the red and at the same time, the flow of income becomes slower!  those emotions as feeling lack/needs/worry about my power of spending/worry about my capacity to generate money becomes cyclic and each time the momentum of work and income slow down or my spending become large those emotions begin to be activated strongly!  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel unstable and worry about my financial future I forgive myself that ...

  during the last 3 months, my body and its  experience with psoriasis become more and more severe and I begin more and more annoyed by the psoriasis symptom in my fingers that become more and more apparent  4 years ago I begin to know that this problem skin that I had in my finger and in my head is know as a psoriais disease and I begin to study the causes of this diseases ! I discovedred a lot of thing and the relation between my diet and my emotions specially to the developement of this disease in my body ! but until now I did not do anything to support my body to stop this conditions ! all I did is to worry more and have more fear that can be developed more in my body  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having the psoriasis disease in my body  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect my body and not taking care of it all those years  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to proc...

  Today when I was discussing by phone with my wife, and begin to listen  her talking about her emotions/thoughts about our all tasks and actions that we do not yet do and also how things move slow for us to move to the new house and all the the things to do for create a true momentum in business especially for recruiting new people and have a new office. When I was listening to all this talking I begin to observe a energetic  movement inside me and begin to feel bad and begin to have a desire to project this emotions on my wife as a cause. At this moment I begin to take deep breath and also focus in my inner thought and emotions and I made the decision to write about it and make the self forgiveness about it and here I am writing to check my mind  In the past when such thing happen and such energetic movement happen inside all what I did is to let my mind activate all the excuses and justification why I am a victim and not responsible about it and project the respon...

  Last week I engaged in my second marriage in this life after my failure in my first one. This time my engagement is done by the intention to make this relationship work as agreement until the last breath in this life . I intent to make it a life changing relationship in my existence.  The big realization in this life is about to understand that relationship must never be based in feeling even the feeling of love because for the first time I understand why the love marriage relationship do not last . Because each relationship is based on a feeling is unstable et can break at any moment but a true and real relationship must be based on principals and what is best for all and where the partners are one and equal . In this kind of relationship is used to create the environment to support and stand up for each other as a team as a couple as a group  Relationship is your only solution to beat your ego ..because you can never ever beat your ego. It is more far powerful and int...

  Yesterday I was reading some materials in desteni community and I come across this statement " structure and discipline equal FREEDOM" ! that was a new understanding for me and that open my new area in my mind! I was all the time during my life valued freedom as a feeling and as a way to be free from the system/matrix/slavery! FREEDOM was and still the main value for me in this life! but at the same time, my whole life was programmed and pre-programmed to never live discipline and build structure! I was living in a not congruent thinking system that valued freedom but at the same time is not able to implement structure and mainly discipline!  discipline was my main weakness and not do it was a way of rebellion against the system! Now when I see/understand and realize that my freedom is mainly a result of structure and discipline that makes me determined and willing to live the discipline word in my life! that was also the main living word that I choose for myself for this...

  expose me to the world and others such in a small group of stranger that I do not know or they do not know me was the one thing that I avoid all my life without knowing why or even take time to investigate this challenge and I convince myself that is not a "big" problem for me and I do not need to change by finding so many excuses and justification as I do not need to do it or even I do not need them or even that they can not bring anything new or help for me and I am superior to share with them something !  I continue my life isolating myself from groups of friends/family/co-workers/brothers/parents/children and the only relationship that I keep for me and It was a very big challenge was my love relationship with my partner  this challenge extends itself in my life when I begin to have thought impulse to bring my business to the next level by exposing myself to videos/lives on social media! I find all the time some excuses and justification to not do it! and I manifest...

  after a failed marriage et continue to challenge to have a stable relationship with a partner! I begin to ask a question and investigate my mind about my reactions and understanding about relationship and marriage and what is hidden in my all challenges in building an equal and one relationship with a partner!  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid at any price to have an intimacy " into me I see" with myself  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/understand and realize that my past addiction to sex and masturbation was a direct result of avoiding having intimacy with myself and hide in other relationship with my partner  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take time and confront myself by investigating/seeing/understanding and realizing what I am becoming as one and equal as mind consciousness system  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my self i...

  During my last weeks and in my interaction with my partner in the preparation to make the decision to be together! the demon of my past follow me in each discussion and interaction ! in the last weeks I made the biggest mistake toward myself and toward my partner when I cheating on her ! this was the event that let me make the commitment to change for real in my relationship toward myself and especially to sex/masturbation. I made the decision to build and support myself about those two addictions in my life masturbation/sex!  I made the decision and I begin the process of change by writing/self-forgiveness/ and living the new principles moment by moment and breath by breath and in this process, something happens that was related to my partner who refuses to forget and forgive! each time there is a memory activated in her mind by discussion/word/event/environment ! she insisted to remember me about my mistakes and the possibility that I do again the same mistake! at the begi...