Day 37 : Relationship As Agreement

 


Last week I engaged in my second marriage in this life after my failure in my first one. This time my engagement is done by the intention to make this relationship work as agreement until the last breath in this life . I intent to make it a life changing relationship in my existence. 


The big realization in this life is about to understand that relationship must never be based in feeling even the feeling of love because for the first time I understand why the love marriage relationship do not last . Because each relationship is based on a feeling is unstable et can break at any moment but a true and real relationship must be based on principals and what is best for all and where the partners are one and equal .

In this kind of relationship is used to create the environment to support and stand up for each other as a team as a couple as a group 

Relationship is your only solution to beat your ego ..because you can never ever beat your ego. It is more far powerful and intelligent than you and me. So the relationship based on principals is the only solution that can help and support to beat the ego and begin a real life 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live my relationship based on the feeling of love not on the principals 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not assume my responsibility 100% for my acts/feeling/emotions in my relationship 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior/less/victim each time there is no more harmony in my relationship 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  avoid discussion/communication each time there is a conflict and opposed opinion in one aspect of our shared life in my relationship 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not accept live as one and equal to my partner in our relationship 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still react in my relationship according to my programming and memories for a male that is superior not equal to female 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have resistance to accept and live equality and oneness in my relationship with my partner as one and equal 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still have self interest from time to time in our relationship each time I do not receive the actions or reaction I imagine or I want in my own mind 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still have fear and difficulty to not expose and share my mind 100% with my partner as a results of not have yet a 100% self honesty with myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do what is take to live a relationship love as I was programmed in my life without any awareness in my family/movies/songs/magazines/images 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not yet build a clear and organized agreement for our lasting relationship 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear exposing myself to the world as a happy and joyfully partner in a harmony relationship 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have fear of communicating discussion with my partner especially for the contracted aspects of our life such my last marriage and how to deal with my 2 kids in my last marriage.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear will become less/inferior in my business with my wife as partner 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still feel stressful/inferior when my partner do the things that I should do as a man such negotiating the prices/ communicating with man about our personal tasks 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel not be proactive and take initiative in our relationship concerning our life and future 


I commit myself to be self honest with myself and with my partner concerning our relationship 


I commit myself to re educate myself about how is a real man and masculin and support myself to live the life as a real man for my partner on our relationship and educate myself to be a incarnation of a real masculin partner 


I commit myself to take time each day to invest in our relationship such investigating our reactions/emotions/memories about my relationship and especially to a physical thing and task that are best for all in our relationship to build trust /harmony and agreement 


I commit myself to share my mind with my partner to defeat our ego each time I fond myself isolated and living in my mind or having inner discussion about our relationship 



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