Day 25 : My Self Trust Weakness

 


Today I was thinking about my business and how to discipline myself to develop the habit of calling/ prospecting/selling daily! and ask me why after all those 8 years in the business I did not yet develop these habits as my second nature. also, I am aware that I trust my business partner more than myself because I was anticipating that she can close more than me and she can have to receive payment more than me! I was kind of waiting for her to do the work and have trust in her more than myself.

this realization makes me investigate my self-trust and what are my thoughts, emotions, and memories about trusting myself 

trust-myself means to have confidence in myself and know that I can do what I decide or promise myself to do or know simply that I can succeed in whatever I am doing or deciding to do

trust myself  means also have firm certainty and knowingness about my decisions/ thoughts/ emotions and feeling  

this is was my main challenge and weakness in my personality! for example when I decide about doing something like wake up the next day at 6H00 or promise myself to make a certain number of calls during the days "5 or 10 calls" or just tell myself I will buy some flowers for my wife tonight! and then I forget or not take seriously my decision or promises or just not have trust and confidence in myself that I will do it or even need to do it! this kind of pattern in my doing and thinking and feeling toward myself make my self trust weak day after day until the moment I will not trust anymore my words/decisions/plan/commands.

This is the process of how I lost my self-trust principally in those small tasks and my mind was programming that I lost self-trust in my ability to change and make things happen or even make my goals and dream come to reality

this pattern makes me also do not trust my inner self-talk and what I decide inside me or all the inner conversation and planning and decision inside me toward doing things happen. I am not taking myself as thoughts/decisions/feelings/planning seriously, my language is just for talking not for doing and command or giving the order to follow until the last moment of accomplishment 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust others and conditions and physical proves then to trust myself and my ability to make change 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust my words/decisions and inners conversation toward making things happen

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/understand and realize the process that I follow in the time to lose my trust in myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not keep my promise toward myself first and tell myself what I can do or follow my words until the moment of realization and accomplishment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I can trust and have this kind of security by other peoples or of what is happening outside in the physical world  

 


 

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