Day 35 : My Fear To Expose My face and Myself TO THE WORLD !

 


expose me to the world and others such in a small group of stranger that I do not know or they do not know me was the one thing that I avoid all my life without knowing why or even take time to investigate this challenge and I convince myself that is not a "big" problem for me and I do not need to change by finding so many excuses and justification as I do not need to do it or even I do not need them or even that they can not bring anything new or help for me and I am superior to share with them something ! 

I continue my life isolating myself from groups of friends/family/co-workers/brothers/parents/children and the only relationship that I keep for me and It was a very big challenge was my love relationship with my partner 


this challenge extends itself in my life when I begin to have thought impulse to bring my business to the next level by exposing myself to videos/lives on social media! I find all the time some excuses and justification to not do it! and I manifested a partner who "think/believe" the same thing so we both together make this belief strong more and more for us and continue to keep us hidden from the world and the public 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to isolate myself in life from each group or community friends/family/cause/co-worker and not dare to expose myself in such groups 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide my fear about sharing my idea and exposing myself with other peoples in a different group 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what others will think about me and judge me and my knowledge when I find myself in the position to whare my self with other 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/beLIEve/imagine that I am superior to others to share and expose myself and that others do not deserve to share what I know 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and do anything to keep my personality/character and life secret and personal without exposing anything or any details about it to the world and public 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep thinking/imagining/masturbating my mind about why/how/what to expose and share with the world, that I create a fantasy energetic experience in my mind that impressed in my body without any physical living word in the physical world 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a slave of my thoughts/emotions/memories/backchats/imagination as excuses and justification to not take action and expose myself / my face to the world 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I do not have enough things/information/knowledge/experiences to share in my continued/consistent exposing and sharing myself with the world 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel less and inferior to others " such famous/gurus/influencers" when it is related to expose and share myself /life with others 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my life will be ruined and influenced once I begin to share it with others, and not see/understand and realize my life is already ruined and influenced in some parts even without exposing or sharing with the world 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I must use some manipulative/marketing techniques once I will share my life such as shooting/"professional"/prepared/scripted video or any marketing material to manipulate and influence others without realizing this is the control of mind consciousness system and I am doing all thing to avoid to express myself in the moment breath by breath without preparation 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise with my partner and fear his opinions about us /about our "image" once we begin to expose share our life/self to the world 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid sharing myself in the Facebook groups/community by fearing not keeping a perfect image in the mind of my current/past/future clients/students in my business 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself to many fragments that I keep for each one in my life, I become a mosaic of personalities separated, each personality is destined to certain groups/friends/person according to the type and kind of relationship with the person! I am not one anymore and I am not self-expressing myself, I become a slave of different personalities programmed in my mind consciousness system and I learn the game of adaptation/manipulation in the relationship according to the other not the own self 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by my partner and compromise with her ideas/beliefs/thoughts/emotions when it is the case to expose/share/related to the world and others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be attracted to the idea of secrecy and privacy and think once I act in secret and privacy I am equal and simulating the elite and I begin to have the feeling to be as the elite because I feel inferior/unequal to them without realizing that the truth I am not born in the privileged family elite and no matter what I do my genetics is blocked and pre-programmed to be one of the masses UNLESS to follow the process to reprogram my DNA with the principals that are best for all as one and equal including the elite group 


I commit myself to show up and participate in the hangout weekly meeting of self perfected group each Friday 


I commit myself to share my challenge video for each week in the self perfected group 


I commit myself to communicate with my partner in self-honesty and self-responsibility about all our fear/doubt to share and expose our life/self to the world 


I commit myself to share my Facebook live in the paradigm shift club each week for about 10 to 30 minutes to share/educate and give value 


I commit myself to do each week actions to develop a real relationship with a current friend or new friend in our community: self perfected or paradigm shift club 








 



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