Day 36 : Structure And Discipline = FREEDOM

 



Yesterday I was reading some materials in desteni community and I come across this statement " structure and discipline equal FREEDOM" ! that was a new understanding for me and that open my new area in my mind! I was all the time during my life valued freedom as a feeling and as a way to be free from the system/matrix/slavery! FREEDOM was and still the main value for me in this life! but at the same time, my whole life was programmed and pre-programmed to never live discipline and build structure! I was living in a not congruent thinking system that valued freedom but at the same time is not able to implement structure and mainly discipline! 

discipline was my main weakness and not do it was a way of rebellion against the system! Now when I see/understand and realize that my freedom is mainly a result of structure and discipline that makes me determined and willing to live the discipline word in my life! that was also the main living word that I choose for myself for this year also! 

when I look at my daily activities , I can not see any structure or discipline for a continous activity , the main discipline I have daily was sleeping/eating 3 time a day/ using phone and social media/ brash my theeth each morning/ driving car/ drinking water.  those are activities to survive in this life ! those are not real activities to live mu purpose, there is no discipline related to my partner relationship with my wife or to my business or even to support myself in this life ! for those main 3 areas in my life : my marriage, my business, my relationship with myself there is no discipline no strcture that explain for me a lot about all my strugling with myself/marriage/business " make money flow easily and continualy and stably to my bank account" 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect build structure in my business and let my emotion by unstable according to the flow of money in my bank account, there is the flow of money = I feel confident/strong/free, there is no flow or less flow = I feel stressful/frustration/fear 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize and understand of I do not do a thing in a structure and with discipline, there will never but a stable flow of income to my bank's account 

I forgive myself that I do have accepted and allowed myself to be free of the fear of doing the selling activity daily with discipline and continuity 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/beLIEve/imagine that when I live discipline I will not be free anymore and when I build structure I will not be creative anymore 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear spending money daily and having worry daily to not have a flowing income daily to my bank's account 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel worried/frustrated/lack of confidence when I see that I can not maintain a momentum cycle of flowing income to my bank account 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still imagine that continuous and disciplined actions like doing presentations daily will not guarantee the daily stability of income to my bank accounts 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel demotivated/unconfident when I remember the unit of time where I did more than 35 presentations during a month without any closing or having income 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be educated and programmed to have discipline and structure in my DNA pattern 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be sure/confident or just know the flow of income once is created in the momentum cycle can be continuous and stable 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine/think/believe the flow of income will stop in the days/weeks/months each time I begin to create a weekly momentum in the flowing income to my bank account 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel doubt/fear/insecure/not sure if the flow of money will continue to come in the next days/weeks/months 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate the act of planning/building/working my structure in my relationship/business/with myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate discipline and doing thing in the structure 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect/posponed/procrastinate every thing I intend to do with discipline and structure such " make call daily" , "having a intimated moment with my wife daily" , "writing daily" 

I forgive myself that I have  accepted and allowed myself to be brainwashed and programmed by the definition of freedom as doing what I WANT/DESIRE to do without principles or any relation to the physical reality world 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let image-maker link freedom in my mind to women/having sex/have a lot of money/ follow self-interest / doing what is good for me me me without considering what best for all 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the word freedom without any awareness or investigating what it really means outside the brainwashed programming of media and government and religion 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe that freedom and discipline are two excluded thing, if we have discipline we can not live freedom, and if we are free we do not have to be disciplined and working with rules

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow the instant satisfaction at the moment and neglecting the importance of time to make thing happen in the physical world without understanding that discipline and structure can make the thing work and happen in time in the physical world 

I commit myself to list my daily activity to do with the discipline that will let me live freedom in my life 

I commit myself to take time daily to build the discipline of making calls daily with consistency detached emotionally from the outcome of calls 

I commit myself to take time daily to write in my blog in a disciplined way as a tool and way of investigating mu mind; support myself and make change real in the physical world and as a way to express and live my self-trust toward myself and build it moment by moment breath by breath 

I commit myself to share daily publications/content/questions in my Facebook profile and groups as one habit or pattern where I live discipline 

I commit myself to take time to plan and build a real, strong, last structure in my business that will guarantee the flow of income with or without my putting my energy into this structure 

I commit myself to live my day with discipline " this is my plan" and live the plan daily moment by moment with my awareness in each breath 

I commit myself to plan my day/week/month/year in harmony with my priorities/purpose/goals 

I commit myself to have and reserve time daily/weekly/monthly/ to plan my work and implement discipline in my activities breath by breath 

I commit myself to study/understand what It means to be the living word discipline and support myself to be the living word " discipline ". 

 



 

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