Mimoun's7YearsJourneyToLife

  In last days, when I was observing my wife in her interaction with kids, and how she become flexible and ready to change her caractere and attitudz..i become aware that I have a strong stubbornness mindset toward change and make thing best. The main thing that I did not ready and wanting to change was my laziness and my fear of engagement and discipline. And I am stubborn toward change my laziness caractere. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myslef to be owned by laziness I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not find strong reason to quit stubbornness  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself 

  In the last month, my relationship with money and make money begin to be unstable and a lot of fears/worries/memories about the negatives energy about money begin to activate! I begin to have a feeling of lack mainly because I see my saving is decreasing by investing in my new house and also the momentum of my business and income is slowing down! those two events make me feel as I am not able to generate more money and begin to worry about my confidence to make the money I want! and also I begin to see my bank account in the red and at the same time, the flow of income becomes slower!  those emotions as feeling lack/needs/worry about my power of spending/worry about my capacity to generate money becomes cyclic and each time the momentum of work and income slow down or my spending become large those emotions begin to be activated strongly!  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel unstable and worry about my financial future I forgive myself that ...

  during the last 3 months, my body and its  experience with psoriasis become more and more severe and I begin more and more annoyed by the psoriasis symptom in my fingers that become more and more apparent  4 years ago I begin to know that this problem skin that I had in my finger and in my head is know as a psoriais disease and I begin to study the causes of this diseases ! I discovedred a lot of thing and the relation between my diet and my emotions specially to the developement of this disease in my body ! but until now I did not do anything to support my body to stop this conditions ! all I did is to worry more and have more fear that can be developed more in my body  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having the psoriasis disease in my body  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect my body and not taking care of it all those years  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to proc...

  Today when I was discussing by phone with my wife, and begin to listen  her talking about her emotions/thoughts about our all tasks and actions that we do not yet do and also how things move slow for us to move to the new house and all the the things to do for create a true momentum in business especially for recruiting new people and have a new office. When I was listening to all this talking I begin to observe a energetic  movement inside me and begin to feel bad and begin to have a desire to project this emotions on my wife as a cause. At this moment I begin to take deep breath and also focus in my inner thought and emotions and I made the decision to write about it and make the self forgiveness about it and here I am writing to check my mind  In the past when such thing happen and such energetic movement happen inside all what I did is to let my mind activate all the excuses and justification why I am a victim and not responsible about it and project the respon...

  Last week I engaged in my second marriage in this life after my failure in my first one. This time my engagement is done by the intention to make this relationship work as agreement until the last breath in this life . I intent to make it a life changing relationship in my existence.  The big realization in this life is about to understand that relationship must never be based in feeling even the feeling of love because for the first time I understand why the love marriage relationship do not last . Because each relationship is based on a feeling is unstable et can break at any moment but a true and real relationship must be based on principals and what is best for all and where the partners are one and equal . In this kind of relationship is used to create the environment to support and stand up for each other as a team as a couple as a group  Relationship is your only solution to beat your ego ..because you can never ever beat your ego. It is more far powerful and int...

  Yesterday I was reading some materials in desteni community and I come across this statement " structure and discipline equal FREEDOM" ! that was a new understanding for me and that open my new area in my mind! I was all the time during my life valued freedom as a feeling and as a way to be free from the system/matrix/slavery! FREEDOM was and still the main value for me in this life! but at the same time, my whole life was programmed and pre-programmed to never live discipline and build structure! I was living in a not congruent thinking system that valued freedom but at the same time is not able to implement structure and mainly discipline!  discipline was my main weakness and not do it was a way of rebellion against the system! Now when I see/understand and realize that my freedom is mainly a result of structure and discipline that makes me determined and willing to live the discipline word in my life! that was also the main living word that I choose for myself for this...

  expose me to the world and others such in a small group of stranger that I do not know or they do not know me was the one thing that I avoid all my life without knowing why or even take time to investigate this challenge and I convince myself that is not a "big" problem for me and I do not need to change by finding so many excuses and justification as I do not need to do it or even I do not need them or even that they can not bring anything new or help for me and I am superior to share with them something !  I continue my life isolating myself from groups of friends/family/co-workers/brothers/parents/children and the only relationship that I keep for me and It was a very big challenge was my love relationship with my partner  this challenge extends itself in my life when I begin to have thought impulse to bring my business to the next level by exposing myself to videos/lives on social media! I find all the time some excuses and justification to not do it! and I manifest...