Mimoun's7YearsJourneyToLife

  Decision making was always some things that I procrastinate and fear to confront myself by a decision to do thing or change myself  It was in rare occasion that I made a decidion proactively and in the most of the time I did the decision in the last minute and also because I was obligated to make it  Also there is many times in my life where I procrastinate décision until someone else do it for me perhaps a business partner or my wife or my parents  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to considere decision making as some thing difficult and be postponed all the time  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take my self responsibility to take decision in time  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have fear to take decision quickly here and now I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let others make decision for me  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed ...

  At this stage of my life when I do an investigation of my relationship I realise that I was all the time alone and do all to live in isolation  I was thinking that there is no one that can understand me . I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to isolate myself from other I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I do not need anyone  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think when I am alone I can have a peace of mind I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel superior to other  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that no one can understand me  I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prefer be alone then communicate with other  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel arrogant with people  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I will not learn from other ...

  Building relationship with people , communicating , contacting , calling people are the most challenged task that I did not feel confortable to do in my life and that cause me a lot of problems and miss great opportunities in business  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not ask people for anything and fear the deception of asking  I forgive myself to have accepted and allowed myself to fear ask my parents in my childhood for money or some thing I want and I tink some time days to ask for money and I forigve myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel shame to do it  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear asking all the girls in my schooling process for dating and each time I appreciate a girl I had a tremendous fear to ask for dating  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel shame and unworthy to ask my partner for what I want  I forgive myself that I have accepted and a...

  Today when I was listening to the last speech of Trump in the Washington DC after more than 3 months of HOPE to see him again for more 4 years , I had the most important self honesty moment with MYSELF ! I was hoping all those 4 years and especially in those last months that Trump will make the world great again for me and all the people in this life and I was giving up my responsibility to change myself and stand up to change this world without waiting for a savior/Messiah !  I was thinking/believing / pretending that I am my only savior and I am not waiting anyone to do it in myself but I never be aware that was me as/ equal and be my mind ! It was not myself but myself identifying equally with my mind , it was my Consciouss mind system that was enslaving me as all the time in my life . I was not self honest with myself ..I was hoping, waiting see, and not standing up to change myself and the world system for THE BEST OF ALL . NOW I am aware if I do not it and self support...

  I remember in a phase in my life when I loose my self expression and self honesty and begin to hide and have a secrets mind about what I am doing.  This was beginning when I become fall in love with a women , that was first time I feel "love" or attachment at this moment I begin to loose my self honesty and begin to hide especially from my parents and think that I am making them feel deception about me.  I thought having some one in my life and have responsibility toward her is a betrayed to my parents because I did not give back them all the great thing they did for me.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty toward my parent because I decide te get married before to be ready financially  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stop being self honest with myself because I wanted to make my partner satisfied  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to steal and hide to give for my parte...

  When I think about my relationship to money in the future those are the emotions that I feel : uncertain, fear, insecurity, have a feeling that I will not have enough , worry , not sure that I can have the same flow of money in the future  I realise this is a energy inside game , even there is some money in account to live tot a period of time but the emotions inside are all the time activating  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel uncertain and not sure about my financial Future  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel unsecure about my financial situation in the future. I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry all the time about my money in the future  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel all the time fear to end up without money to live  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have enough confidence and trust in myself to gen...

  Change is the most challenging thing in my life , change myself and challenge my relationship to things people around me is the most secret zone for me until this moment in my life . Some time t think that I know how to change bit the physical reality prouve that this is not the case because if it is the came , now I will be the person that I always want to be and I will create myself as I intent and this is not the case because when I am slef honest with myslef and I look and investigate my life I found so much thing basic that I never could change such : 1. Wake up early  2. Planning my daily activities  3. Making calls everyday  4. Change laziness by productivity and daily achievement  Those are just some exemple in my real life that make the subject of change complicated for me and also there is some thing that I do not comprehend about change or missing or not yet understand  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that once...