Day 16 : The Illusion of Change !

 


Change is the most challenging thing in my life , change myself and challenge my relationship to things people around me is the most secret zone for me until this moment in my life .

Some time t think that I know how to change bit the physical reality prouve that this is not the case because if it is the came , now I will be the person that I always want to be and I will create myself as I intent and this is not the case because when I am slef honest with myslef and I look and investigate my life I found so much thing basic that I never could change such :


1. Wake up early 

2. Planning my daily activities 

3. Making calls everyday 

4. Change laziness by productivity and daily achievement 


Those are just some exemple in my real life that make the subject of change complicated for me and also there is some thing that I do not comprehend about change or missing or not yet understand 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that once I change my feeling and energy so that I can change things in the physical world 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior and powerless toward change in my life 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend that I am changing  my life and when I investigate my physical reality I find that there is no change it was all just in my mind 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that make change is difficult and take time 

I forgive  myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not considered that change is a process and not an instant event 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise and understand that change is a process that I can make a reality in the physical world by writing self forgiveness and self corrective a d commitment then living the change in the physical world breath by breath 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live the change in this life by myself and not just accepting and following what I receive and learn from others about change 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look /research / think there is a shortcut for change and the easy way all the time 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be self honest with myself about what really change in my physical world beyond the illusion of energy in my mind 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not ever never put all myslef 100% committed to make change I want without any doubt/hesitation /worry 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try all the time to avoid the dificult way of change and looking for the easy way 


I commit myself to invest my time to learn/understand and integrate how change is truly work and share /challenge other to change for the best of all 


I commit myself to stand up for changing myself breath by breath day by day following the process of self writing forgiveness , self commitment and living the commitment in the physical world 

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