Day 113 : Fear to Handle Responsibilities

 


Monday 1 August 2022 ! I get the information that my wife is pregnant! This is was a moment of fear for me because I felt I am not yet ready 

This phase of my life is the most challenging one from 3 to 4 years ago ! 

Now I am feeling there is some responsibilities I fear to handle it.

1. The financial situation that get worse in the time

2. Have a new baby coming in the next 8 months and Fearing to have him here and all the responsibilities that goes with health education

3. Do not yet find a right storehouse for my wife things 

4. Obligation to receive my kids for 15 days here without being ready yet.

5. Continue payment and spending money 

6. House that is not big to have a baby and recieve family and friends 

7. Lack of confidence to have new client and create more money.

How I can handle all those responsibilities ?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel stressful and powerless and fearfully about my current situation about finance.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret and think just if I did not take the decision to put all our money inside.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear investing again in marketing and team recruiting 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior and less


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel deep and profound terror and fear about my current financial situation 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not break down this fucking fear cycle.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I can not make enough money again as Much as I need to make 


I commit myself to do what ever it take to improve my financial situation this week and get clients inside 

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