Day 100 : My Fears, Doubts, beliefs as the man of my family

 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am less 

I forgive myself that I havr accepted and allowed myself to be a nice guy


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel shame and powerless to do something 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prefer death and stop fighting to be a real man


I forgive myself that I have acceoted and allowed myself to not be a real.man for my woman


I forgive myself that I have acceoted and allowed myself to be guided and leaded by my wife 


I forgive myself that I have acceoted and allowed myself to not have initiative and be a true leader in the marriage 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in confusion about relation 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be certain and sure about my decision in the couple 


I forgive myself that I have acceoted and allowed myself to put our family in  a worst position 


I forgive myself that I have acceoted and allowed myself to feel nothingness in my relationship 


I forgive myself that I have acceoted and allowed myself to not be the only provider in the family 


I forgive myself that I have acceoted and allowed myself to not be a hunter and fighter once in the world business 


I forgive myself that I have acceoted and allowed myself to continue in the confusion without knowing what to do.


I forgive myself that I have acceoted and allowed myself to not see rwalise and understand that the man is the exécuter the one who DO the provider 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have clarity about the man and masculine role in the family 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not know how to be stable and balance in relationship about money and my leadership 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be accepted as I am as a man in every relationship 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel rage shame worthless each time I feel that I am not accepted for myself in the relationship 


I forgive myself that I have acceoted and allowed myself to never ever learn how to be a real stable man in a relationship 


I forgive myself that I have acceored and allowed myself to wait and predict the woman will traite me 

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