Day 76 : My Failure as a Man

 


Yesterday and during those last days I was concerned about my relationship in couple and the different role for each one of us and I begin to question my role and the life style that we are living as a couple and how we live the masculine and feminine side for each one of us.

And also my feeling about inferiority because I am not yet in the position to make enough money and have trust to support my wife to retire. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel anger toward my wife because she push me unconsciously to be the one who is responsable to make enough money to feel secure 


I forigve myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not feel self trust to stand up and make enough money that I need with couple 


I.forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I can not make alone all the .oney that we want in our family 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up and lead in the couple 

I forigve myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have the courage to made decision to structure my daily independently of my wife work 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still thinking I can not take care financially of all my wife needs 


I forigve myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel unsecured a d shame when my wife declare that she could be with another man rich that can answer all her need financially and beyond 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel fear and not be able to create anough money that will take care of my wife and of my family 


I forigve myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt my ability to make money alone and with increasing amount that exceeds my family needs 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I can not do anything about it 


I forigve myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think it is difficult and impossible to change myself to become the responsable man who deserve his self trust and trust of my wife.


I forigve myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see understand and realize that the main reason my wife did not yet quite her job is because she can not yet trust me to generate enough money for our family 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to denial and ignore my fear and doubt about my capacity to generate money for our family 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate the decision to retire my wife and not assume 100% responsibility


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend that I am not responsible of my wife job and I am creating her an environment of freedom to do what she want.


I forgive myself that I have acceored and allowed myself to still a weak man in my situation to stand up and create enough money for our family 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take initiative and assume my wife responsibility to quit her job.


I forigve myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt my capacity and ability to give my wife a style life that she want and need 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be claire about my real role as a provider and creator of money in family


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise with my wife about our role I will not ask for more because I can not provide as much as needed and asked


I commit myself to stand up.and support myself to be a real man for.my wife and assume the responsibility of my family alone for money creating and providing 


I commit myself to point valident and confront my fear about my role as a man and reprogram myself to be a real man who is responsible to provide life style for.my family 


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