Day 69 : Conflict Money in Relationship

 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do all the things by myself  and I do not have my own


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perc her as a women that she is always complaining about the lack of money 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel stressful to manage money


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  live disorder at house

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still compromise about my needs in this relationship and at home


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my needs at home  missed


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have to stress with her at work and accept disorder at home


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise because I am afraid to not be able to assume responsibility


I forgive myself that I have accepted accepted allowed myaled to feel I am a slave without my own money

I  forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel limited by her presence at work


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel limited to do the same thing together

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  feel impressed by her implication in everything


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myalef to let her  jump on my role


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think.amd feel that she do not accept her role as female


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myalef to not know any more my real role as male

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not know any more what is my role as man ?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not know any more what is a real man ?


I forgive myslef that I have accepted accepted allowed myself to feel doubt in my abilities each time she make  implication in some thing 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myslef to not can  face myself


I forgive myslef that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to face her with my thoughts


I forgive myself that I have accepted accepted allowed myslef to think that I not need a business partner I need a wife


I forgive myslef that I have accepted and allowed myself to  not feel supported as I need

I forgive  myslef that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel and think that  she is always trying to play my role

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lost my Strengthen 

I forgive myslef that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/feel.and act as  a weak man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not know  to be strong any more


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise with finance and she is not satisfied

she still need her own money
she do not feel we are one any more
she think that I exploit her financially
she think just about what she can get financially
she is always stressful financially
I feel I am limited by her
I feel I must slow down with her at business speed
I feel a deep weakness
I am always stressful about money
I am always afraid what she think about our money
I can not spend because of her
when she become a business partner I can not find a real wife at home
I hate her role as business partner because I have to do or denial my needs at home
when she is active in business I lost my comfort at home
my discomfort at home influence my productivity at work

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