Day 53 : I Deserve Some Thing For NOthings

 


Today I was preparing my weekly Live in my Facebook group about " how to overcome the financial pressure" ! and then I begin to listed some attitude and ways of thinking to change that cause mainly the situation for everyone of us and this was one that I begin to investigate in myself " I deserve to get something for nothing" 

In the beginning I though that I am not concerned about it and that I already work this point..but then I stopped myself to be honest with myself and ask myself if it is the case why I did not yet get the revenu that I want "about 30K USD per month" ! And then I become aware that all those 9 past years I was in the situation to try to work less to get this kind of income that mean I was trying to get 30k USD per month without putting enough work just by putting little bit work. That was a claire realization that thus kind of thing was printed in my mind without being aware about it because I was not honest enough with myself 


Self forgiveness 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I deserve something for nothing


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I want secretly to get something for nothing 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel smart by working less and getting more.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not demande more work/effort/engagement from myself in this life.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that just enough is ok for me to survive without any engagement to do more and get more 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think if it is not worse keep it as it is 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior just by looking to receive and given to me from someone else 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a passif receiver and silently asker for charity from others as family or friend and consider myself as inferior not able to get what I deserve for my own labor 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue accepting receiving money from my family without effort or work from my side 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to not stand up and work and pay all my doubt and borrowed money from family and friend and banks 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do just enough to keep things working for me to survive 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel shamed to be someone that wait others to help or lead 



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