Day 52 : Why I am alive ?

 


Why I am alive here in this earth ?!

Did I choose to be here in this earth ?

Today I am thinking why I am alive and why I am here in this earth ?!


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize/see and understand that I am not the one who choose to be here in this earth. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget all my existence and separate myself from me as me as one and equal with existence 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be here in earth with full ignorance without knowing or removing who I am.and why I accepted to be here 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am here to create to live for a purpose to contribute and experience this life 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am alive here in this physical world and not see/realize and understand this is not life this is a mind/consciousness experience where I am separated from myself from life 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live here for my self interest to get things /money and things 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to loose my motivation for life to really live and be lost in my mind 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow all the spiritual and attractive.message of love and purpose without questioning it and participate in this physical reality as me as one with my body and the physical 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/imagine/believe that life is for a God that will take my responsibility and that love me as a part of him/her self.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that God choose some.being to be his messager in this life to guide us as inferior and follower and unequal 


I.forigve myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel fear all the time to be punished by God and feel.confusion about all my conditions in life 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/imagine and believe spirituality is the.source.of truth and unity that will save my being in afterlife to the heaven 


I.forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself and resist my mind/emotions and thinking and want to control it 


I.commit myself to follow the desteni message to study it and live in as a model for others to born again as one and equal in the physical body 


I commit myself to use my knowledge and experience in the system to help people get them self out the system 


I.commit myself to engage myself daily in the process of writing reading listing studying to be one and equal with word 


I commit myself to invest use TT to make a real change and help parents and kids to be a real being in this life and be out of the system 


I commit myself to support myself , my wife and my kids to escape the prison of consciousness/mind and live the awareness of being as life 

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