Day 46 : My Fear To Spend Money In TT


 18 months of procrastination to spend 12k USD over 24 months in my own education ! This is my biggest FEAR in last year ! I Know that I need to make this move and I know I and we all need to make this decision..but I hesitate and refuse to give up my money to get this tool and build a community about this tool ! 

There is my fear what if it will not work and waste my money,  there is a fear to confront and convince my wife about this investment and also there is fear I am not doing no thing to make thing change ! 

This investment is about 180 MAD per days in my education! Now I spend about 250 MAD per day for my food ! 

Why I need my wife confirmation. Why I fear to confront and negotiate my situation with my wife  !?

What is the worst scenario that can happen..to waste my money and still the same person without any change ! 

What is the best thing that can happen   to make a real change and promote that change to help others do the same and make money with it ..

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate 18 months to make this decision.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take my responsability to be ready and convince my wife about our future 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear spend 180 dhs daily in my education/family/business !!! 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the future of my family and kids and myself without doing anything 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to know the problem the truth and do not anything about it 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be like the elite to know what is right and do not do anything about it 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear confront myself about the fear of loosing and fear to lead and be responsible 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have courage to do what I still asking people to do daily..Invest in them self and make change !!!!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue in the same path and Doing same thing even I do not get the results I want ! 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to get all and a lot with little investlemtn , engagement  and commitment ..I still have a looser and victim mindset 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait the confirmation and approvment of my wife about all my decision. 


I commit to execute my decision in the next days about investing 180 dhs per day in myself,  my family, my kids and my business 


I commit to stand up for my decision and do what ever it take to make it happen 

I commit myself to convince and educate my wife to accept and to know that is the path to our great future 


I commit to work more, earn more , commit more to make this decision and make things happen 


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