Day 44 : I Feel Stuck In My Life

 


In this last 2 month, an emotion to be stuck was activated in my life..when I sitdown and think about where I am currently financialy , in business and my relationship the simple word to discribe the situation is STUCK ! I am not able any more to change or move toward ..I had the feeling of change but it was a illusion.


Now after 2 and half year of business I am stuck in 100k as turnover and less than 40k for me without any wealth or asset. My work and all asset are outside my proprty..I am always finding excuses to not have my own wealth as real estate, home or cash in bank ! I am now 40 years old without any asset ! That make me feel shame and deception and irresponsable.

I am stuck in my emotions and feeling and thoughts..I am repeating the same thing every time.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue feel irresponsible and victim of my current situation 


I forgive myself that I have accepted qnd allowed myself to continue thinking it is others like my kids, spouce, mother that are responsible of my Current situation without any asset.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to overthink my situation and feel guilty about it.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not assume my responsibility and be ferme in my decision.and wants 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel angry and rage toward myself and others because of my failure

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