Day 30 : Confronting The Consequences of My DECISIONS

 


Today when I was in the process to get a new phone number for me in the name of my company, the telecom operator informs me that there is a fee for the old contract of my old company about 1100 USD to pay before continuing the new contract! my partner was there and she was participating to process this operation and once she gets the information, she becomes negatively charged toward me and Inside me, I begin to activate some negative emotion and thought about this situation 

so in this article, I will discuss two things the first one is me confronting all the decisions/actions/deeds in the past personally and professionally and have the courage to confront all the consequences 

the second point is how I react/feel/think to my partners once we confront such a situation where I was responsible for the consequences that we both confronting because of my past decision/deeds/actions that make me feel/ think a lot of negative things 


so let's begin with the first thing about confronting the consequence of my actions/deeds/decision in the past: such not paying a bank doubt yet, such not follow the definitive closing of my last company, such not look for my situation toward another telecom operator, such not paying all my personal debt to friends and family! 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect and ignore the consequence of each decision/actions/deeds or thing that I did not complete et resolve in the time 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the issues persisting in my mind and avoid resolve the situation in the physical world! 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid and weak to confront each situation/problems at the moment and stop the process of thing or impressing it in my mind 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/understand and realize that each thing/situation/problem did not resolve and confront and deal with at the moment, I create more and more consequences in my mind and my world that I have to confront one day by myself or someone else close to me in family 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe if I do not anything and neglect the problem, the problem will resolve itself or there will be someone else resolve it for me. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be brave et courageous to assume my responsibility in the moment of the event and let myself react after the event 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the pain of emotions that are in the process of confronting and dealing with my problem at the moment 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/understand and realize that each action/inaction/decisions/deeds will create consequences in my life and more I neglect to confront the thing at the moment during the event, more that I create more complicated consequences that I have to deal with in the future 


I commit myself to write all the things/issues/decisions/situation that are not yet closed in my life and that I did not yet confront 


I commit myself to be self-honest, self-responsible and use self-forgiveness to forgive myself and Use the self-commitment to do the right corrective actions in the physical world to live the consequences of my deeds/actions/decisions and let go of all my baggage and my enslavement of mind/energy/consciousness related to all those unfinished tasks and projects 


Now I will investigate the second point, when this is happening, my partner begins to feel bad because she is confronting the consequence of something that she did not create in the past because she is related to me! at this moment I begin to feel/think/imagine a bad thing that I will self forgive 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty and responsible for all the emotions intrigued inside my partner because of the consequence I did in the past 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel responsible to make my partner feeling good and happy 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel angry/ worthless each time I did something in the past that will affect negatively the emotions of my partner 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior/less to my partner each time we confront together the consequences of my past deeds/actions/decision 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to punish myself in my mind and emotions and to remember who bad I am each time I see my partner is assuming with me the consequences of my past deeds/decisions/actions 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like the devil in this relationship and feel that my partner likes an angel! 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel/think/believe that  I am the bad person and the one that creates problem/instability and pain for the couple 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be lost in the idea: I am the starting point of each bad thing in this relationship 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not feel equal and judge myself each time I must confront the consequences of my deeds/actions/decision with my partner at the moment 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel pity for me and my partner each time I see her feeling bad because she has to confront the consequence with me 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe that my partner is not responsible/able/capable to deal with their emotions/feeling/thought internally 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lost confidence/trust in my decision each time I see my partner confront the consequences of my last decision/deeds/actions then I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give away my power of decision to my partner thinking that will eliminate the pain/suffer for her because it will be responsible also in the consequences of a decision in the future 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I cause unneeded problems for my partner each time we confront the consequence of my own deeds/actions/decisions in the past! 


'I commit myself to use this experience of feeling small, less, inferior and the remembrance of letting my partner confronting the consequence of my own past decisions/actions/deeds, to make sure I stay close to myself, to support myself to live the best of myself, to investigate in detail how I did come to this action and forgive myself unconditionally, so that I do not ever make those mistake of creating more consequences for my partner again, realizing that it is not best for both of us and realizing for this moment each decision/actions/deeds I take will influence the life of my partner,


 I commit myself to consider the best of all in each decision/actions/deeds I did in my life 


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