Day 9 : The Power Of Money Over My Life

 


Today in the mall when my partner was doing some shopping as gift for our friend , she come to ask for some money in my credit card ! Then once she asked for the amount of money she need ..the total amount in the card was not enough to buy what we need to buy . At this moment a tsunami of negatives emotions and energy begin to activated inside me and in my body .and I begin to feel anger and hate toward myself and even toward my partner toward me. And at this moment I begin to activate in my mind a lot of memory of all my past situation when I was living without and lack of money .

 And a internal voice begin to communicate in my head te tell me : you see you are always a looser when I deal with money ..all this time you did not anything  to resolve this problem ..you are just a miserable looser and a poor man without any responsability toward yourself and toward people who care for you . YOU WILL NEVER CHANGE this is your nature and the human nature can not ever never change ! 


I forgive myslef that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel anger an hate toward myself and toward my partner each time we live in a lack of without money 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect my responsability to stand up for myself and make enough money in the system to help myself and other 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel powerless and inferior each time the flow of money toward my account is stopping 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have enough determination descipline and continual action to make money in the system 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be content just by enough money to live day by day 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect my attitude and my daily plan action and my business planning until I find myslef in lack or slow flow of money toward my bank account 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep my pre programming thought and belief that I received from my parent about money and not take seriously actions and deeds to purify , reflect and make myself free of all those blocking thoughts about money 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel frustrated and embarrassed each time I ask for or someone else ask me for money 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sorry for each human being without money 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel jealous of everyone that has enough and abundance of money and some time hate and inferior to him/her 


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not treat money as a important ressources but jus waste it randomly in anything and everywhere 


I forgive myslef that I have accepted and allowed myself to not assume my financial responsibily 100% by planning and executing my planning to have a independant life beyond money in the system 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sorry and bad for all people that pay me money for all my services and product 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect planning my family future of money and live in a default situation

I forgive myslef that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel unsecure and threaten when I begin see the flow of money decrease to my bank account 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not act with serious and respect and determination when it is concerned money 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a victim of the flow of money to my account and not stand up and take control of the flow and the speed of the money into my bank account 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel uncomfortable about the subject of money when I deal or discuss it with other especialy with the people close to me such my partner and my family 


When and as I see myself feeling anger and hate toward myslef or toward my partner when I have less money , I realize that is me participating in activating inside my mind a pre programmed thought/memory/chat about money no more , I commit myself to stand up with myself take deep breaths and express my self forgiveness out loud and take action immediately in the physical world to move forward 


When and as I see myself feel comfortable and not presion and think I have enough money , I realize that I am participating in my self destruction and not assuming my responsability and bring myself into a new cycle of lack of money . I commit myself to move forward and take massive action in the physical world to make more money than I need 


When and as I see myself feeling frustration and insecurity to not do anything and see the flow of money slow down to my account , I realise that is a old pattern of povrety that is taking place in my mind/body at this moment . I commit myself to stand up and breath deeply and express self forgiveness and make a corrective and directive statement to make real change by taking small real action in the physical world that let me create value and make money in the system 



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