Day 7 : Inequal Relationship Demons

 

 


Today I will write my mind about all the demons inner conflict and deeds about my relationship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up and build true lasting relationship without secret mind and cheating 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look always and all the time to excitation seduction and energy in the new and fast relationship 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live two life relationship one in the revealed world to one partner and other in the secret life to many partners looking for sex and joy without engagement 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to commit inside me toward one and only lasting relationship

Is forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to develop an addiction to chat and pictures and having many virtual relationship in the virtual world 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in fear, doubt and stress to hidden my external relationship and get more and more energy from my body 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel stress , anger and frustration in a splitting mind between engaged relationship and many others instant relationship 

I forgive myself that I have accepted a d allowed myself to be controlled by images/sex/attraction and pleasure 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take sex/ discussion with women as purpose to waste time /energy and focus 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to research for the next big pleasure ..next big fantasy. Big pops...big asses...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior, worthless, and a not loyal person 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live a secret life in many relationship 

I fogive myslef that I have accepted and allowed myself to betrayed myself ..my life..my partner .

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to loste time and energy for looking to pleasure 

I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel illusion/love/ attraction/excitation toward images/faces/persons in the virtual world 

I forgive myself to have accepted and allowed to stay slave for my sexual desires and a constant contact with women 

I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to eliminate all others lasting building relationships and focus all the time in the sexual relationship to women 

I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel not equal In my current relationship

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live as a not loyal partner and feel not a person that deserve respect 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live a irrespectfull live in my relationship 

I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel fragmented /stressed in my relationship 

I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to sexual attraction 

I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have sexual pleasure virtual 

I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be lost in my mind and my pleasure

I forgive myslef that I have accepted and allowed myself  to feel inferior and not deserved and not equal and accept bad deeds in a relationship

I commit myself to use breath and self directive application to stand up for myself and free myself from the energy addiction 

I commit myself to use less and less the virtual connection 

I commit myself to build a true real lasting relationship with my partner 

I commit myself to share and live the living word relationship ..engagement and marriage 

I commit myself to look inside my mind and each time there is a movement to desire sex pleasure take the decision TO STOP IT 

I commit myself to live in the real physical world ..with lasting partner and eliminate the virtual illusionary relationship 

I commit myself to be honest and make choice about my life and know there is only one life..and choose between liberation and tire relations or slavery to my mind and sex 



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