Day 14 : Why I Fear To have A kid outside the Marriage with my partner ??

 


Marriage is become the main legal Institut in every culture and religion to have kids and babies , and become the legal relationship to have kids and sex.

Why we need marriage and need institutionalized our relationship by the government or religion authority to give human being the permission to have sex and have kids in the name of "God" ? 

Is it that we do not trust ourself anymore and trust the other humain being so that we need all the time write the contract or piece of paper to make things "legal" 

Legal mean here to follow the rules in the system , mean loose our self expression and become automated in the system and institution of marriage.

Anything else outside marriage make human being feel guilty, not worthy, sins even the open minded people who pretend freedom and they do not give a shit to all those laws they are just suppressing their fears and guilt by doing the opposite in a case of polarity to create friction

There is so much fear to critic and fear about what other think and fear to be in the norm and in the laws when any couple had a kids outside the marriage ! 

Those kids are not even accpted by the system because to be integrated in the system " have an identification in the system" , they command that a official paper of the legal relationship !  Otherwase the new born human being has no right to express himself or even exist in the system.

So even there is a new born outside the marriage relationship the parents must legalize their status as a husband and wife toward "God" and toward "Government " toward the system to make the new born a legal accepted human being in the system 

I fogive myself that I have accepted a d allowed to feel fear and guilt to have a new baby outside the marriage with my partner 

I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and worry about what other think about us when we dare to have a baby outside the marriage 

I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel not yet ready have a baby outside the marriage and think that will make my life more complicated 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let sex be a act of pleasure and fantasme not an act of giving life to a new human being 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question the idea of marriage and why it is the only legal relationship between man and woman in the life toward gods and religions and government 

I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take time to study and change myself to understand what make a relationship last between a man and women 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to feel not responsable about the true éducation of kids 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take time to study the parenting and how make the parenting perfect to grow up a perfect humain being in this physical world 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be ready to receive a human being as parent and father in this life 

I commit myself to educate myself about the perfect parenting to grow up a perfect kids as a human being 

I commit myself to assume full responsibility as father to educate my kids for being a perfect humain being in this world for the best of all 


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