Day 10 : My Phone Mobile & Social Network As My GOD !

 


When and as I become aware in the process of Lite DIP and learn more in the eqafe material , I begin to be aware that I am not living in this physical world , all what I do As a Consciouss Mind System is to experience my mind by feeling/emotions/backchat/ inner discussion ..form my birth until this moment I was just a slave of my mind looking for friction by polarity by avoiding the negative energy and searching at any price the positive energy.  


This ugly truth make me feel regret and fucked all my life by the system. 

This realisation of avoiding life in the physical world and escaping in the illusion of my mind was boosted in the last 14 years of my life by the introduction of mobile and then social networks in my life .


My consciousness and my mind find now the best tool as mobile and social network to make me emprisonned more and more in my mind and avoid the true life in the physical world . I become a slave of my thoughts / fantasizes/dreams / inners images/ daydreaming and any thing to avoid ACT in the physical world...that let me to look for meta physical way to avoid and transcend the life in the physicality and be more and more slave of my mind and my illusion. 

 My mobile become my only GOD ..my life become consumed by my mobile..my world become emprisonned in a small screen between my hand front of my face.  

 I migrate my hole life to my illussion virtuel world. I become experience the illusion in my phone and social network more than in my physical word.  I died in the physical world and continue to experience the illusion 

This addiction has become programmed in my flesh in my body. Now I become a true slave of this mobile and social network. Now I become aware that I can not anymore life one true day in life far my mobile .

Be online in social network and have connection and internet in my mobile phone have become the new blood of my life , once stopped I begin to feel embarrassed , isolated, alone, died ! 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consume my life in the illusion world of mobile phone and social networks 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my mobile phone become an extension of my mind/body 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my mobile phone and social networks my window to have access to real world as a slave in the virtual world 

I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not can stop anymore my addiction to my mobile and chatting /contacting/communications in the social networks 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to program my mind/habits/body to live and breath by using mobile and social networks 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate to build a new system of self slavery inside me and in my life called mobile phone and social networks 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel "alive", "connected" and relief when I use my mobile and my social networks online


I forgive my self that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste hundreds and hundreds of hours per years in social networks chatting and consuming informations/news/virtual events. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that there is nothing to do and create and product once I put off my mobile phone and stop my social networks applications 


I forgive myself that I have accepted a d allowed myself to let my mobile manage my life my activities and my planning , let social networks manipulate my feeling/emotions and mood 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to loose confidence that I can live without my mobile and more connection to social networks 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel fear of emptiness once I put down my mobile and leave all my social networks for hours/days/weeks/months or years 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend that my mobile is a tools  of work and social networks a tool of contacting and communicating with client to keep my life slavery to my new God 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build a new GOD for myself that consume my life and my body and my time the mobile phone and the social networks application 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel submitted to the attractions and seduction of my mobile and the socials networks inside 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to transform my mobile to a necessity in my life as air/water/foods 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mobile as a tools of preoccupation and distraction to live my true life here in the physical world 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid physical contact and remplace it by virtual contact in the social networks 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use less and less voice contact call and remplace it by texting and messaging in the social network virtual reality 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel uncomfortable /unsecure /some thing missed when I do not have any more connection and internet in my mobile phone 


I forgive myslef that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be a model for my kids in using the mobile phone and have a physical contact quality time without electronic and mobiles application 


I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear living without mobile phone and be blocked in the social networks application account 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to search and look for pleasure in the chatting and dating social networks application 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel incompetent to live a normal life without mobile phone and social networks application 


When and as I see myself wanting/needing/desiring to use my phone without purpose and pre-planned action to do , I realise that is my mind looking for absorbing and getting more energy/feeling from images/words/contact in the virtual reality , I commit myself to take deep breath and STOP and take down my phone and ask myself the question : what is the purpose ? What is the act and action I intend to accomplish by using my phone now, is it an consuming action or productive action that is best for all ? 


When and as I see myself waste time , minutes or hours or day navigating , collecting informations , news and images without purpose , I realise that I am experiencing illusion in the virtual world and my mind consume and minning energy from my physical body , I commit to put down mobile and stop what I am doing take a deep breath and be here and ask myself : what is my goals from what I am doing now ? How I can do it really in the physical world now and living now 


When and As I see myself use my mobile in the morning in the bathroom as the first action to do, I realise that I am in a pre programmed pattern to avoid taking the responsability of my day activities , I commit myself to not put my mobile connected to internet until 2 hours after my getting up in the morning as a first step to eliminate this pattern 





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