Day 1 : My Fear and 7 years of commitment to Life

 Today is my first day in my 7 years journey of writing to life and freedom 

I never though


t that I can make such a commitment to write my blog and expose my secret mind to other in this blog and I do not even know how this journey will be nether how it will finish or even I can finish it in my next 7 years.

Why I am doing this now ? This is a deep intention and want and need inside myself in my journey to know the truth and create change and also in my journey to know myself and eliminate frustration/straggling and confusion about my life and about life and world in general and also a way to try find answers and expose my MIND to myslef and to other ..

I am not sure if I can do it or even if I can finish the line and also how to do it but I was thinking 2021 will be the first year of my 7 years commitment to rebith in physical world and here I am I am writing my first day 

I forgive myself to have accepted and allowed myself to feel uncertain and not sure if I can bring this journey until the last day 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel not confident to do this writing each day for the next 7 years 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt myself about writing and stand up for and with myself fin this life 


I forgive myslef that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel fear of exposing my secret mind a d all my mind to others in this blog especially for people who knows me like my wife and others 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel frustration and confusion about what to write each day and even if I can find enough subject or theme to write about 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that this writing is not a mandatory and it is not necessary and also think I do not need writing each day I can do it myself in other way 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel not determined enought and have enough deacipline to do this writing daily for the next 7 years 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt my commitment and my decisions now about this journey for 7 years 


I forgive myslef that I have accepted and allowed myself to still think that I can break this commitment


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that is just a commitment and I am not demanding to keep this commitment.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel fear to make this commitment and decision to write my mind


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am alone in this journey there is no one tht can help me or show me if I do it wright or not 


I forgive myslef that I have accepted sans allowed myself to fear to lose all this time and hours in writing without seeing any real change in my life 


I forgive my self that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I have to wait to know all the how to for writing to do it perfect and right 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel resistance and strange about doing this process without knowing any thing about it and how to do it 


I commit myself to write each day beside my mood my feeling and my occupation during the journey 


I commit to take seriously this process and write in the good way each day and do it right 


I commit also myslef to share this writing in the right time with other to expose my mind in this process 


I commit myself to stand up with and for myself fin this process of writing 

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