Day 27 : Doubt Myself To Support & Help Others

 


Today I had a meeting with my of close friends during our university years and he was the kind of person that have success in everything in life, recently had a major challenge with his health that makes him doubt everything in his life!


during those last years, for more than 14 years, I felt all the time inferior /less to him in the view of the point of realization in the material world and money! 


Today, for the first time I feel that there is something that I have to help and support this friend, that event and that feeling makes me stop and think and investigate my mind about the truth of all my thoughts/beLIEf and emotions about this event and I become has a lot of question about that was happening 


why I felt all those years inferior/less than my friend? 

why I assume that I am not equal to my friend just because he has made more money than me in those all years?

Why I doubt all the time my ability to support and help others?

what it mean really to support and help others?

why I never consider honestly to support and help myself first and do not invest my time here in this life to do it first? 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior/less than anyone who has more money than me 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that because others have more than me in the material possession so I can not support or help them 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize and understand that my fear and doubt to help and support others is mainly caused by my doubt to support and help myself and my separation from myself here and now 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself to support myself and be a model living word for others that ask for help and support 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/ beLIEVE because other is old than me or has more experiences in life than I can not help or support him to change himself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel worthless and valueless for other, my prospect/ my clients 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my past/memories/stories/history control what I think about myself and direct myself in the process of helping and supporting others 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to put value in money and judge myself and others according to how much money they have and eliminate all value from the consideration including the value of life 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others according to my realization and accomplishment in the physical world and according to my self-image and past  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/understand and realize that the origin of comparison and inferiority and lessness to others is the inequality to/with others 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never stop and decide/commit to following a process to stand up and support myself systematically and one time a life 


I commit myself to stay close to myself, to stand up for myself, and to support myself first to prove to myself that I can really change 

I commit myself to confront/investigate/forgive all my doubt/fears that activated inside me when I see and observe myself feel inferior/less/unequal to others/clients/prospects 

I commit myself to live the living word trust-myself and be aware breath by breath that I am living the word in my life in the physical world as one and equal to the word 


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